不能說出的感受

又快要一個月了~~~真的很快..........現在的生活...好像是個空白期.........沒有甚麼作為...沒有了自我...真的不知道自己在做甚麼........為了甚麼...........在追求甚麼.........像是自閉般~~~


幸好剛剛的週末去了macua+珠海玩玩樂~~~與父母何baby and other 親戚together~~~感覺好free~~~呢種free既feeling好似遺失左好耐咁..........好舒服好happy~~~唔知this feeling幾時先會再番番黎我度呢????in macau......行左好多路~~~hahaaa~~~亦都輸左幾舊水呀我地一家三口!!!!wakakaa~~~only玩大細同老虎機ja ma~~~咁都lose左幾舊水!!!!!!!!!!!!!!i hate casino ar!!!!入親去都冇好野既!!!!!!!!!幾舊水呀...........得我買左野佢好過啦!!!!!!!!!!!!!ai~~~besides...我地仲食左好多野..........影左好多相呢~~~~kekeee~~!!!


talk about CPH...由之前A002 till now E101.....都係行行企企咁..........but A002好d lor...起碼有番d routine野做下......actually whole A002 都幾好架........only有大羅here就唔好lor~~~and now E101.....forensic ga............應該都勁野黎ga~~~but actually佢地冇我想像得咁terrible lor~~~really...同正常人差不多吧!!!!!!!!!!but始終都係要打醒十二分精神...........as你really唔知佢幾時會郁手!!!話哂都有history丫!!!!!!但o係呢度真係得個企字.............sometimes blow ha water....但又有幾多野你blow丫!!我今日淨係同Asperger小妹妹吹食量都吹左粒幾鐘la!!!!!!!!!!真係俾佢煩屎呀!!!!!!!!!!唔答佢佢又會狂追住你ask...........really冇佢咁好氣架!!!!!!but從另一個角度諗..........佢really好poor....今年先得18yrs old..仲要個病係冇得醫!!!!!!!!!咁.............唔通要佢呢一世都stay at here咩??????點可以呀.......太殘忍la..........ai~~~so grey.....but i can do nth........i can't do anything for her.........



留在青山只剩下七天............雖然很多時候會好無聊...........但我仍然要好好享受這裏的一切.........因為機會實在太難得!!!!!!!!除非我真的癲了,否則我跟本不能走進這個瘋人院去感受他們的生活...他們的下半生..............